mixed feelings

heyho. i want to a heart-to-hearts talk (curhat)

okay, i have problems. three problems. those problems are MATTER. i mean, i cant choose one. its all important

okay, first problem is : christmas rokris 34. the christmas is getting close. it will be this friday. THIS FRIDAY! and, uh yeah im an official too so its kinda my problem too. im a singer, too. and it needs some practices for the christmas. and thats why i kinda busy because of my singer thingy

second problem : bulcup. i was chosen and i can join the choir competition in bulcup. HORAY. but the competition will be on the next tuesday. and we only have about a week to practice. shittah. but my christmas needs practicing too, so im busy in two things. ARGH

third problem : paspor thingy. my mom has a surprise but ITS NOT SURPRISING ME AT ALL. its only getting my problems worse. she wanted me to take a picture for my pasport on thursday - its tomorrow- but the christmas JR is tomorrow too

curhat

oke oke hmm kalo dipikir-pikir gua tuh dari dulu tuh udah sering bangeeettt dicurhatin, sampe-sampe tuh yang gua bosen sendiri

ya kea tadi, anak temen gua lagi dijauhin sama temen temen (termasuk gua)terus tuh yang tadi pas OR kita tuh jahaaatt banget yang ngadilin dia gitu aduh kasian banget

tadi juga tuh dia curhat tuh sampe yang nangis-nangis gitu gak heboh sih cuma yaa sampe segitunya gitu JADI NGERASA BERSALAH BANGET DONG GUE?!

jadi tuh gini emang dia tuh pada dasarnya yang sifatnya tuh jelekk banget segala yang jelek kayak ada di dia gitu huahah parah nah terus because of that lah dia tuh yang curhat curhat gitu deh ke gua seolah-olah dia tuh yang duuuhhh kasian banget gitu ya gua tuh sampe yang ngerasa "yaelah jahat banget gua ngadilin orang sekasian ini" ya gitu dehh

nah terus dia tuh yang udah bilang "udah cill kalo semua pada nggak suka sama gua yaudah lupain aja gua gak usah nginget-nginget, daripada kalian malah makin dosa udahlah" ya gua langsung menyayat hati dong (iyeaahhh bahasnyaaa)

ya terus gua bilang aja gini "ya pokoknya be yourself aja, jangan terlalu lo ituin deh omongan mereka. gua juga dulu diginiin kan waktu kelas 7, lo udah berusaha itu yang penting"

ya begitulah sekian dan terima kasih, maaf kalo gak penting

cheers,

cel-a

NB : maaf ya jogja gk diterusin yaa foto-fotonya aja